Eeepoh..

Its already one week since i last posted on my blog ..LOl..GLad that i am back here during christmas where all my good frens since high school is back . Many things unspoken by me as they shared their college life with me and i shared mine with them . LAugh our ass off by our lame jokes . Time passes very fast ,i came back on monday and now is already sunday. I am counting my days till the 4th of JANUARY .MAny things is in my head , thinking about whether i can cope with the subjects or not and can i be able to get new frens. LOL..LIfe is too short to be too worried about all of these things. Partially i am already ok now . HAving back my sleep again and my giant apetite. Maybe sometimes i got hurt too much till it doesnt hurt anymore ..

An outing with her ...

After my malaysian studies exam today i went out with someone considered to be "SPECIAl" to Alamanda for dinner. After so long i have been separated from her and we went to ALAmanda at this time . LOlz IT was weird and we decided to go to NAndo's to have our dinner. Actually i really wanted to spend her but she was like so offended and she said " AH nevermind la since u spend me last time i spend u this time ok ". I notice she hasnt really change that much since she is with someone else. Still the same annoying sweet girl i know since foundation. THe same girl that is so caring and would listen to all your problems even though she has her own problems keeping inside of her. SHe has the ability to glow around others when the people around her is dark . The girl which i knew and loved till now hasnt change but am i the guy who change because of her. There are many problems in my heart that i kept it in silence last time . I tried to ignore everyone in this world due to stress that my parents are giving me . One tried to get money from another and another is trying not to give money . I am fed up of all this shit already . I am fed up of being sad and angry . I am tired of shutting people out especially those who are really caring. I wanna be happy and i wanna give people the feeling of happiness especially my friends happiness . Eventually i broke up with her without knowing the reasons and why it happened during the first day of chinese new year . I was depressed then and didnt know wat i was doing but eventually she is happy off with another guy now. I always ask BUDDHA for happiness for me , my dad and mum but i did not see any of it getting to them. MY dad is full of shit now and he is the type who likes to give excuse in whatever possible way not to pay my fees . He makes people's life miserable but he is enjoying in his own sweet house with big TV and hometeater system. CAN YOU IMAGINE THAT TILL NOW MY DAD DOESNT EVEN KNOW WHAT IS THE NAME OF MY UNIVERSITY ??? LMFAO . It was either too funny or dissapointing to me . I dont even think he knows how to come to my uni as i asked his help many times but he keeps giving excuses that he is busy with his work . ALl i know is when i call his office he always get off work at 5pm sharp. I really see him as a failure in life . FAILURE IN WHICHEVER WAY HE IS . LOL.. Btw doesnt matter whatever shit decision it is i willl strive hard. I will be happy with my frens which is them that i can forget about my problems . If I Really could turn back time, I would MAKE her as happy as i could . I love her back then and my feelings for her has not changed until now. ..

GOod Morning ...

An early rise this morning .Lol.Sashi called me to go to FCM cafe to have breakfast there with NIthya and mani they all. Btw , this might be the last breakfast i will ever have with them before leaving MMU. I was like so blur when i woke up ,went to brush my teeth and wash my face before i walk there. After having a cup of nice Nescafe tarik , it really makes me awake after a 3 hours of sleep only. Just dont feel like eating in the wee hours of morning , I dont know whats wrong with me this semester ,No apetite, sleepless nights and having mental breakdown . My lifestyle have to change before it get worse . Next sem i need to get myself straighten out. I must strive hard for my mum and dad . I cant afford to having failures as they put their hopes in me . Cant imagine myself blogging while listening to bigbang ..LOl..Btw i saw u in FCM yesterday when i went to submit my malaysian studies journal. Love to see that u smile ..=) Wanted to tell u that I MISS U but it just cant come out from my mouth . TIme to go for lunch ...

Sleepless nights..

Every night when i tried to sleep early , it will be an impossible mission for me to do so . Lol i cant sleep and my mind just wonders round and round thinking of you. It comes automatically without me triggering it .When i lay on the bed and started to close my eyes the picture of your face would be there and it is hard for me to sleep .When that starts memories of you will be flashing through my head . I cant live through this anymore . You moved on leaving me behind to have these kinda mental breakdown. I guess you dont really care about me anymore. DOes not matter if it stays that way because the truth always hurts. Since the day i have been separated from you , the days look more alike just the same . Memories we spent will always be in my mind because you are the one who showed me happiness and sadness. You cared about me when i was in a very bad situation. Anyways when i pretend that i am happy and moved on deep down in me still remains the same. MIssing you as always . Decisions that i made can never be changed . Hope i can have my sleep back again without any memories of you ..

Escape To Midvalley...

The Big family ...

Before Piercing.

After PIercing.

Midvalley Center court..

I and sashi decided to go to midvalley on monday as we planned last week but vino,gopi,mani and nitya wanted to go for shopping in Alamanda which is in putrajaya.lol..SO i asked them to join us since they wanted to go shopping must well we go to somewhere awesome which is MIdvalley more stuffs to shop and so much better than alamanda . Midvalley was kinda awesome..Hahax teasing vino and then nithya .I was so dumb.NIthya went and make a keychain and wrote some1's name on it . I thought it was his father's name or wat ..See SEE its some1 "special".Hahax ..Once i know i keep teasing her in midvalley ..HAHAx .Was kinda fun .Then we went into one jigsaw puzzle shop and sashi showed me a puzzle called celestial and the puzzle can glow in the dark ..ITs kinda amazing . Try to guess the prize of the puzzle.It is nearly 300 bucks for one set but its really awesome. Then we went to the ladies section cause Vino wanted to get her sis a shawl or something .LOl.. there were many people lining up to pay.So its crowded.I manage to pull a few jokes by asking Vino and Nitya dont you guys want to go to the place opposite there .LOl..Guess wat they sell opposite the counter.Lol..Ladies undies and bra ..They keep staring at me in a way like they wanna eat me like tat .Lol..Then after that we went to a shop to get presents for my grandma and i also decided to get something for "someone" since christmas is coming ..We really had fun on that day .When we really decided to go back at 9 oclock we ate ice cream ..Wee baskin robbins was nice ..=)

Noise Pollution..

It was one fine evening when i was sleeping and then i woke up because of the noise pollution near my area in cyberjaya.I do not wish to say badwords here but i am really pissed of those people near the barbeque area. IF they are having party why cant they have it in a good manner or if u wanna on the music so damn freaking loud go club la. NO money dun need to do party here and disturb people.Seriously they are so uncivilized.Real cheapskate baskets. FIne if you wanna have a party why cant you adjust the volume to a comfortable level so that it will not affect others. I am so pissed so now i decided to lend my roommate's altec lansing Speaker and play BASsHUNTER's bass blasting songs. IF they can blast i also can blast music .LOl..The floor is shaking due to the bass of my roommate's subwoofer. THe speaker not bad wei hahax .IF i got money i am going to get 1 for myself.There is this old english saying an eye for an eye.I wonder what speakers are they using lol..When i turn on the altec lansing speaker i cant even hear the sound of their music.

Choices i have to make ..

Hey after a few days of leave i took from blogging finally i am back ..hahax ..Oh yeah the choices that i have to make in this last ride of my life . Recently i found out that Inti College accept my foundation in INformation Technology and i was kinda shocked. I am now in a dilemma in choosing whether i should continue in MMU or switch to INti. The odds is 30% for MMU and 70% for INTi .If i am goin to INTi i will be starting the first year of degree which i will be majoring in Finance. If i stay in MMU i will also be majoring in FINANCE. lol Which is which now,hard to make up my mind. I prolly should visit the councellor of INTI then i will decide.THe thing about me going to INti is the 2+1 they are offering in the university of NOrthwood.My mum is giving me the option she should have when i applied for INTi college first. Now i am totally in a dilemma weiiiii.Nevermind about that, I would like to express my thanks to my childhood friend Yeap KOn shyen and Jocelyn for giving me advice bout my last post about the secrets of my memories.I guess the outcome of it will be known next month. Then i am still waiting for AirAsia to send me an email for me to go for the first stage ..COMe on AK i am waiting and waiting just give me one chance to sit for the test and if i am lucky enough to go through all 4 stages then i will be very much please with myself. YEsterday my mum called she kinda emo .LOl dunno why she said calling me is expensive and recommended me to use skype .AIya one son only and call twice a week also expensive .SIEN ..fine I have to do wat she says if not she will merajuk like a budak kecil ..AHHAAx.SO i am going to download the skype today and see wat she's gonna say about the choices of me going to INTI ..LOl ..If stay eat malay food and remain the boring lifestyle of the people here and if i go i can have chinese food,my aunts are there .HMMMm..
WIll post my updates soon ..

A walk to remember..

Guys this is a really good movie . Lol i can say it is better than twilight and new moon.

A trip back to ipoh ...

Lol...I came back to Ipoh on thurs morning then one of my long lost primary school friend called me up Friday night to go to NAsmir . Then that guy FFK on fri for Futsal . Bugger but luckily he get his friends to come on fri noon which is approximately on 5.30 but still his friends are late . If he and his friends did not come then Minesh 's statement about SMI fellows cannot be trusted are true .. BUt still we played a good game although we lost against them but still its good playing with your schoolmates again . 2 of them pancit so fast lol..The only guy who ran the whole court is Minesh . There are only a few friends that i can trust and all of them is in IPoh and there is only one in my uni which is realy trustable. Its already 2 years past since i left my School ACS ipoh and all of my friends who are still in form 6 are finishing their studies and leaving my beloved hometown to continue their studies somewhere else. Wish all of them to have a smooth sailing education ahead of them .

A walk to remember ..

Hmm... Today before i hit the road back to ipoh. I was watching this movie called a walk to remember ..After watching the movie i feel damn down and kinda emo ..LOl. It is a very touching movie in many ways . IT teaches you alot of things ..Anyway skip the philosophy part from me .. Here is the synopsis of the nice movie. The main actress is Mandy Moore and the actor i dunno who is it but he did a very good job in that movie.It is about this guy who doesnt give a shit about his life and he is very mischievous and likes to do bad things in high school. A guy that doesnt appreciate anything due to his father leaving his mother and him when he was small. Then his principal caught him and punished him to do 3 things which is giving Tuition to the weaker students , act in the drama club and going to church every sunday .. Then he met this girl which was not popular and not pretty . VEry normal girl .. In coincidence the girl is oso in the drama club . THis guy who sucks in acting needs her help in how to express himself in acting .. He ask for her help but the gal told him in one condition that he should never ever fall in love with her . Eventually this guy did fall in love with her naturally not because of her looks but its because she has this miracle that can change one person truly . IN the end of the movie the gal has leukaemia and died .. I recommend you guys shud watch this movie .. REAlly really touching .. You can even watch it in youtube IT has the whole one and a half hour of touching moments there ..LOl...

EMoish...

Love is always patient and kind it is never jealous,
love is never boastful or conceited ,
it is never rude or selfish it does not take offense and is not resentful,
love takes no pleasure in other peoples sins, but delight the truth it is always ready to excuse to trust to hope and to endure in whatever comes..

lol..VEry emo after watching that movie ..
Will post it soon in here ..Time to bath and hit the road back to my home town

Secrets of memories...

Lol....Do you believe in fate ?? Yes i do ..There was once when i had this person in life but i didnt appreciate what she did for me and now i really regretted it . There is no point when things seems to be intact and then u felt u have lost everything .. When she is with another guy there u go something hits your head so hard that you dont even kinda feel it and your heart really hurts like something is stabbing it ..=) and you will have these sleepless nights and all the sweet memories of it came back flashing by your head . Maybe god wants to sent me a message that whenever you hurt or did not appreciate someone it will all come back to you. When you realise that you need her back in your life thats where it will be lost . Feelings are just lost in the wind . I cant believe its already my second post after i open my blog .. Guess she is happy with whatever she is doing now . All memories that i held in this alphabet I once wore will always be in my mind as i remember you as the person i love .... Sweet Dreams my sayang ..SAranghaeyo...

Life and its changes...

Life ...What is life ??Life is just like a candle.WHen the flame is still burning we will continue to live and when it is blown off we will perished in to ashes.Can anyone answer me specifically what's life and its purpose . People die everyday and all it is left is just the remains of it .. Its already going to be one year since my grandma died. Many people came to the funeral but i dun see those faces when she was alive .Truthfully people doesnt appreciate when she is still alive but when she is not here why bother crying ?? There is no point if u cant appreciate them when they are alive.. I asked this question when i met a monk in a buddhist centre in IPOH.. i said can u explain to me Whats life and purpose of living on it ..lol..And he gave a bunch of facts ..For your info the monk is a UM graduate in economics..Speaks good english .But still i am wondering why he became a monk ..Still there is always a reason behind everything . LIfe is given to us by god and he can take it away from us any moment . SO we must live our life to the fullest and to its extend .. Even though it is sad .. We must smile and be grateful in what we have because when there are worst things happening there is always other people far more worst then us ..I am not a contented person last time .. As time flies i realise lots of things bout life and how it goes . Enjoy studying while it last and i believe lord buddha is always guiding me in whatever i do in my life ...


PEace out >.<