UNCERTAINTIES

Hey guys i am back after leaving this blog empty for so long. Today's topic is uncertainties where i should elaborate in the sense that life has many uncertainties as we live in 365 days a year and 8760 hours a year. You would never know what lies ahead of you. There maybe challenges and mountains to move and it has been an exciting three years in college where it will come to and end of it. I am excited and curious where would god want me to go ? How successful i am in the next 8 years ? This is the few questions that popped up in my mind each and every day. I have always envied people who has a perfect family where father and mother is caring,loving and etc. That was the old me changed into today where i would tell myself "ALL IZZ WELL" when i face problems even during exams to calm my heart.You guys should try it and believe me it works .People are always negative if u start noticing people around you. This creates what we called negative energy and it affects each and every person in that particular group. Humans are a funny bunch of creatures that always do not look at themselves before judging other people. Simple as a weasel I am referring to a general group of people with real life evidence. I would like to use the "Toyota Way" which includes continuous improvement. I would strive that day by day i would be better as in person and characteristics. Well humans are not perfect. If you cant change people you should change yourself for the better good or we called it the betterment of society. SIGNING OFF ...

An Essay to SHARe....

Brain drain: The Migrant’s Eye
Written by Shaun Tan



‘Our young people represent the future of our country’. This phrase has been echoed by almost every politician in almost every country in modern history. However the changes instigated by the increasing ease of migration are such that not even this time-honored cliché holds the weight it once did. Young people still represent the future, but it is the future of whichever country they decide to settle in or impact, which may or may not be their country of origin. As with most changes, there are new benefits and drawbacks, and new winners and losers. Among the most pressing questions countries now face are how to prevent their young people from migrating, and how far they should go in providing for the migrants residing within their borders.
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Exodus
Smart Indians go to med school,
Smart Chinese go to investment banks,
Smart Malaysians go to Singapore.
- Anonymous

My first brush with migration was in 2002. My father came home one day in a state of great excitement. My father is an excitable guy. He is also an alumnus of a university in New Zealand, and he had just learned that, because of this, our family was entitled to permanent residency (PR) status in New Zealand upon fulfillment of a few (relatively minor requirements). One of the requirements was that we reside in New Zealand for at least three months over the next two years. We discussed it and decided it might be fun. We packed for summer.
Within a few weeks I was bored. New Zealand was charming enough in its own way, but it didn’t have the vibrancy of my home city of Kuala Lumpur, and I couldn’t imagine us choosing to live in this land of sheep and five o’clock closing times instead. And yet I understood why my father pushed for PR status so eagerly. He remembered the Indonesian racial riots of 1998, and he kept the pulse of rising extremism in Malaysia. If violence ever broke out in Malaysia my family would have a back door, a way out.
Later on I saw that most of my Malaysian friends who could afford it went abroad for at least part of their education. Some went to boarding schools in Singapore, Australia, and the UK. When it came to university, almost all my Malaysian friends went to Australia, the UK, or the US. The reasons they (and their parents) gave for wanting a foreign education were the same: the racial quotas in Malaysian universities, the skewed syllabi, the controls on free expression, the low standard of the Malaysian education system (apart from a few private university colleges), and the relative quality and prestige of foreign schools and universities.
At university this trend continues. Many of my Malaysian friends plan to remain overseas after graduation, or to work in Singapore. ‘Everything in Malaysia is on such a small scale,’ one of them said, ‘it can’t compare with the training you get overseas’. Some of them hope to return to Malaysia later, but only in the distant future, after earning enough money and establishing themselves in their industries. I know the power of inertia, and every year that goes by makes it less and less likely that they will return.
Asian societies have very tight family bonds. Most of my friends have parents who miss them very much, and who dislike them living far away. However, far from meeting with parental opposition, these plans have full approval: the message my Malaysian friends get from their parents and relatives is, ‘Don’t come home’.
No Brain, No Gain
Malaysia faces a brain drain crisis. Recent decades have seen the migration of many ethnic Chinese (comprising 26% of Malaysia’s population)1 and Indians (8%)2, as well as considerable numbers of Malays, the majority ethnic group (53%)3. Shamsuddin Bardan, executive director of the Malaysian Employers Federation, reported that there are 785,000 Malaysians working overseas.4 Unofficially, the figure is thought to be over a million.5 According to the World Bank the number of Malaysian emigrants has increased almost a hundred-fold in the past fifty years, from 9,576 in 1960, to almost 1.5 million in 2005.6 A parliamentary report revealed that 140,000 Malaysians emigrated in 2007.7 According to Deputy Foreign Minister Kohilan Pillay, the figure between 2008 and 2009 was 304,000.8 As of 2007, 106,000 Malaysians had renounced their citizenship.9
Many of these Malaysians go to Australia, the UK, and the US.10 About half of them go to Singapore,11 which has a GDP per capita almost four times larger than Malaysia’s12. The portion of the Malaysians who return is minimal (Prime Minister Najib Razak reported the figure to be less than 1%)13 prompting former Prime Minister Mahathir Mohamad to suggest that other countries should pay Malaysia for having seduced them to stay ‘since by right, the graduates’ training and knowledge should be called intellectual property.’14. Prominent writer Mariam Mokhtar outlines the reasons given by emigrants: ‘improved employment and business prospects, higher salaries, better working environments, greater chances of promotion and a relatively superior quality of life.’15.
This has severely retarded Malaysia’s development. Malaysia continues to be the poor cousin of the Asian Tigers – Hong Kong, Singapore, South Korea, and Taiwan. Malaysia’s growth rate dropped from 9% a year, from 1991 to 1997, to 5.5% a year, from 2000 to 2008.16 Stewart Forbes, the executive director of the Malaysian International Chamber of Commerce and Industry, explained that many of Malaysia’s lost investment opportunities stem from the brain drain – because international companies had trouble finding skilled employees in Malaysia.17 ‘People have left, growth prospects have dimmed, and then more people continue to leave,’18 said Danny Quah, an economics professor at the London School of Economics and Political Science, and Council Member on Malaysia’s National Economic Advisory Council, ‘It’s a vicious cycle that the economy has had to confront for the last decade or longer.’19. The increasing ease of migration has produced new winners – countries like Singapore, Australia, the UK, and the US, who get to cherry-pick from a global talent pool. It has also produced new losers. Malaysia is certainly one of them.
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The Malaysian Dilemma
As there are new winners and losers from migration, so too are there new benefits and drawbacks. A classroom discussion threw this debate into stark relief.
It was last year. The date was the 27th of September, the country was America, and I was in my International Relations class. We were discussing globalization, and having gone through some of its benefits, we moved on to its drawbacks.
‘Well,’ said one of my classmates, ‘one drawback is that it increases the brain drain effect and leads to greater inequality between countries. Developing countries lose a lot of the talent that they badly need.’. This received a general nodding of assent.
I raised my hand. ‘Actually,’ I asked, ‘is greater inequality necessarily a bad thing?’.
My class, accustomed by now to my mannerisms, still looked at me strangely.
‘I mean, it’s true that many developing countries end up losing their talent, but really, some of these countries bloody well deserve to lose them.’.
This created a small firestorm. From my classmates’ reactions you’d have thought I’d asked what was wrong with genocide. There were gasps. Before I could finish, a forest of hands shot up to respond. One of my classmates burst out angrily; ‘Now you’re just being facetious!’.
My professor moved to restore order. He was a kindly old man who usually let our discussions run their course. He did however step in whenever our discussions threatened to turn into a pseudo-intellectual brawl.
He turned to me. ‘I assume you said that to be deliberately provocative’ he said gently; a teacher reasoning with a difficult student.
‘No,’ I said, ‘not at all.’.
I looked at the rest of my class who now whispered amongst themselves and eyed me warily, apparently taken aback to see their (I hope) usually charming and amiable classmate say such callous things.
But to me my statement seemed as normal as breathing. And said to any reasonably informed Malaysians, it wouldn’t even have raised an eyebrow. I realized then that there were perspectives on this issue that are unique to Malaysians, and to those who have experienced similar circumstances.
Push and Pull
I’ve left a few unanswered questions over the course of this essay. Like why do loving parents tell their children not to come home? And why do many Malaysians think Malaysia deserves to lose its talented young people? Now at last is the time to answer them.
Malaysia has a lot going for it. It has much untapped potential. It is devoid of natural disasters and rich in natural resources. It is a country with warm weather, amazing food, and hot women. Its people are generally warm, friendly, and (with certain exceptions like yours truly) humble. Pull-factors like these would require considerable push-factors to trigger mass emigration.
But there’s a darker side. A side behind the strained tranquility and Malaysia Truly Asia adverts. Since its independence in 1957, Malaysia has been run by the Barisan National (BN) party, and its regime is an autocracy that institutionalizes racism. Non-Malays, including the ethnic Chinese and Indian minorities, are discriminated against in favor of the majority Malays, whose support BN depends on. Malaysian laws make non-Malays pay higher prices for certain goods and services, allocate them only a small percentage of places in public universities, and impose significant barriers against their advancement in the military, police force, civil service, and in government-owned companies. The BN government persecutes minority religions, and major Malay politicians often refer to Chinese and Indian Malaysians as pendatang (immigrants), of inferior status, while the current Prime Minister Najib Razak is alleged to have threatened to ‘bathe a keris dagger with Chinese blood’.
The BN government is also very protectionist, making it even more difficult for international companies to set up business there, for example, international law firms can only operate in Malaysia by acting in partnership with a local firm. Furthermore, the BN government is both grossly incompetent and highly corrupt. Billions of dollars in public funds are squandered on cronyism20 and ill-conceived mega-projects21, instead of being properly used to develop the country. The judiciary is largely comprised of underqualified yes-men, the police force is unreliable, and the public schools and universities are of low standard, such that even Malaysia’s top university, University Malaya, has dropped out of the top 200 universities in the world on all major rankings.22
This is why loving parents tell their children not to come home. They don’t want their children to live as second-class citizens in Malaysia, where their ambitions will be limited by institutional inefficiency, where they will be passed over for promotion in favor of others, not for any lack of skill, but for the color of their skin. ‘Money does have a significant role but the most important factor…is opportunity,’ outlined Wan Saiful Wan Jan, Founding Chief Executive Member of the Institute for Democracy and Economic Affairs, ‘Malaysia is too politicized and opportunities are not evenly available to everyone,’23.
This is why Malaysians flock to Singapore, not because Singapore’s government is less despotic (it is even more so), but because the Singaporean government at least prizes efficiency, and recognizes merit regardless of race. When a Malaysian renounces his citizenship, he doesn’t see it as an unpatriotic betrayal, he sees it as washing his hands off a regime that has marginalized and persecuted him. As one Malaysian, Wan Jon Yew, explained: ‘I’m not proud of being a Malaysian because I think the government doesn’t treat me as a Malaysian.’24. Migration is beneficial because it increases efficiency; it allows young Malaysians to move to take their best offers, to move to where their ability is truly valued. A mind is a terrible thing to waste, and migration helps to reduce this wastage.
Not all Malaysians mass-emigrating are Chinese and Indians. Many Malays are emigrating too. Although they do not face racial persecution, many of their reasons for doing so are the same as those of non-Malays: the corrupt and inefficient system, the lack of security and religious freedom, the quashing of free expression, human rights abuses. Furthermore, Malays face a different form of religious persecution – forced piety by the overzealous Islamic moral police. Non-Muslim Malays and Malay homosexuals are jailed or sent to ‘reeducation centers’25, and earlier this year 80 Malays were arrested for celebrating Valentine’s Day26. In light of this, Malaysia deserves to lose the talents of its young people. It doesn’t appreciate these talents; it punishes its best citizens – those brave enough to stand up for themselves, or those too principled to fake devotion to a religion they don’t believe in – and instead it rewards its worst elements – the religious extremist, the racist, the sniveling sycophant. In a sense, we as Malaysian citizens deserve to lose the benefits those talents would have brought, because through our participation or collective inaction we allow this wretched state of affairs to continue. Migration is beneficial because it allows Malaysians to leave, and to live in a country that accords them the dignity commensurate with their status as a human being.
The Open Door
The ability to migrate presents young Malaysians with an open door to the rest of the world. This is not without its drawbacks. Many of the Malaysian émigrés leave not because they are weak or cowardly, but because they are ambitious, or because they are uncompromising – they refused to take orders from those who are their inferiors, or to remain party to a system that is morally indefensible. One cannot help but imagine how much good such spirit could have done if they had no choice but to remain in Malaysia. Not necessarily by engaging in overtly political activities, but by simple apolitical acts – by living their lives in their own way, free from compromise, and refusing to curb their ambitions. As Vaclav Havel explained in his book The Power of the Powerless, such simple acts are often the most potent weapons against oppressive regimes. Thus, migration has its drawbacks – it makes it harder for Malaysia to achieve real change because it takes away some of its most spirited people.
However there are also many young Malaysians who choose to return, and who seek to bring real change to the country. People like Nathaniel Tan – a Harvard graduate, who writes books exposing the abuses of the BN regime, even if his efforts meet with harassment and detention. Or Alea Nasihin – a friend of mine, and a student at Nottingham University, who resolves to return to work as a human rights lawyer.27 Or myself. For us the open door is comforting. It gives us the courage to say or do things we might otherwise be wary of. Because it reminds us that there are limits to what an oppressive government can do. Because we know that even if our efforts harm our careers in Malaysia, even if the BN government hounds us and bars us from getting a job at any major company in Malaysia, there will always be many other places eager for our talents. It allows us to take more risks and dare greater things. The open door presented by migration therefore simultaneously hinders and helps the process of change in Malaysia.
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Point of Origin
From a Malaysian perspective, good measures for broadening opportunities for young migrants in their countries of origin are relatively straightforward. The most obvious one is to increase meritocracy, to distinguish merit instead of race, religion, gender, or sexual
orientation. When each citizen is judged solely on the basis of his ability, when high standards are promoted, when the most innovative people are rewarded and encouraged, the whole country progresses and develops, creating greater opportunities for all. Nepotism and cronyism should be prohibited in all industries, so that positions and promotions go to the most able candidates. This policy should be pursued in conjunction with scholarships and financial aid for poor youths to attend schools and universities, again awarded on the basis of merit.
The other obvious measure is to liberalize. A liberal society that respects human rights provides the broadest opportunities for free expression and the free practice of religion simply because fewer things are prohibited. Laws should be enacted against the interference with an individual’s expression or religious practice, unless he harms or grossly misrepresents another person in doing so. The judiciary should be allowed to become strong and independent, so that everyone has the opportunity for a fair trial.
Meanwhile, opportunities should be given to migrants who consider returning to their country of origin. Those living overseas, but with vital skills in various fields should be invited back and offered senior positions, with PR status or citizenship offered to their families.
A fair, liberal government that rewards merit provides the broadest opportunities for its people. Measures like the Malaysian government’s Returning Export and Brain Gain Malaysia programs fail to attract young people because they make only cosmetic changes, refusing to give effect to the principles of fairness, liberalism, and meritocracy, that are the essence of true improvement of opportunity.
Destination
Good measures for broadening opportunities for young migrants in their countries of destination are relatively straightforward too. They largely consist of refraining from the policies these migrants were fleeing from in the first place. Other than some free basic language-training programs, no special privileges should be given to these immigrants, and no affirmative action policies should be implemented. Instead, these immigrants should be allowed to compete for (generally) the same opportunities as everyone else, judged on the basis of their merit, rather than race, religion, gender, or sexual orientation. They should be given equal opportunity to exercise their civil rights, like the rights to free speech, association, and religious practice. Their right to marry should be recognized regardless of sexual orientation, and the continued ban on gay marriage is an instance where the US has fallen short of this standard.
However governments should be conscious of where granting formal rights in fact restricts opportunities. In Beyond Liberal Democracy, Daniel Bell contrasted Western and East Asian approaches to dealing with migrant workers. He described how migrant workers in East Asia are denied citizenship (and thus full legal protection) no matter how long they stay, while those in Western countries are able to obtain it much more easily. The result of this is that East Asian countries are able to officially admit many more temporary contract workers. Comparatively, Western countries can officially admit few migrant workers, although many more work there illegally, without any legal protections at all. ‘In the West,’ Bell explained, ‘the liberal political culture places higher priority on the justice of legal forms…In East Asia, by contrast, the authorities prefer to enact…laws that allow for large numbers of migrant domestic workers to engage temporarily in legally protected work in their territories.’28. Governments therefore should not dogmatically pursue form over substance, but should be pragmatic in their measures to achieve the best results for immigrants.
Ich bin ein Inmigrante
‘Once I thought to write a history of the immigrants in America. Then I discovered that immigrants
were America.’
- Oscar Handlin
America is not without shortcomings in providing for its immigrants. True equality of opportunity can only be achieved with the shattering of glass ceilings, and there are numerous social barriers that still need to be overcome. To this date, the highest office in the country, that of the President of the United States, can only be held by someone born on American soil. And yet America remains the land of opportunity for so many people. The immigrants in America are integrated far better than those in Europe, because Americans are conscious of the fact that they were all immigrants once. And America has benefitted greatly from this. It gets physics from Einstein, political theory from Arendt, movies from Ang Lee, eye-candy from Maggie Q, and literature from Junot Diaz. The fact that Irish-Catholic immigrants like the Kennedys could become America’s most prominent family, that an Austrian immigrant like Arnold Schwarzenegger could become Governor of California, and that a black man born in Hawaii and raised in Indonesia could become President, is a testament to this tradition.
I am the product of migration. It was through migration that my ancestors from Fujian province in China came to live in Malaysia. It is through migration that I have been able to grow up in Malaysia and study in Britain and America, and it is through migration that I have had the privilege of learning from people from all over the world. My accent is a bastard mix of British, American, and Malaysian. My upbringing was a schizophrenic blend of liberalism and Asian Tiger Mom style parenting. I revel in living in a mixed-up world and having a mixed-up self.29 I have tried to live consistently with the principles advocated in this essay. Where in my life I have failed I have accepted it and tried to learn from my mistakes. Where I have succeeded, I have taken pride in the knowledge of having done so myself, not needing any legal crutch to prop me up. The only right I have demanded is the right to a fair contest. I think that the right to fair competition is the only thing we can and should expect.
- Shaun Tan is a finalist in The World Bank 2011 Essay Competition

My Ever Favourite Song .

YOU AND ME

What day is it? And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time

Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

All of the things that I want to say just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words
You've got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here

Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

There's something about you now
I can't quite figure out
Everything she does is beautiful
Everything she does is right

Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

What day is it?
And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive

HOLidays tat meant something to me .

Holidays are ending and i am going back to Kl tomorrow entering my first semester in degreee in my new college which is inti college SUBANG JAYA ..lol..I cannot imagine the 2 and a half hours journey with minesh in the car talking and annoying me non stop. LOl ..IF he talks too much maybe i will just drop him off in TAPAH ..hahax ..REally annoying la that fellow. YEsterday he was in my car for only 20 mins and he talks non stop like a machine gun . I am glad that i spent time with my best frens from high school which is KEan TAt and KOn SHyen ..I WOUld like to thank them in giving me advice in helping to forget about the person that i have lost .. They really helped alot by being patient and understanding towards me .I will never would have be a better person if its not because of both of you ..=)..Last but not least thanks ..

Eeepoh..

Its already one week since i last posted on my blog ..LOl..GLad that i am back here during christmas where all my good frens since high school is back . Many things unspoken by me as they shared their college life with me and i shared mine with them . LAugh our ass off by our lame jokes . Time passes very fast ,i came back on monday and now is already sunday. I am counting my days till the 4th of JANUARY .MAny things is in my head , thinking about whether i can cope with the subjects or not and can i be able to get new frens. LOL..LIfe is too short to be too worried about all of these things. Partially i am already ok now . HAving back my sleep again and my giant apetite. Maybe sometimes i got hurt too much till it doesnt hurt anymore ..

An outing with her ...

After my malaysian studies exam today i went out with someone considered to be "SPECIAl" to Alamanda for dinner. After so long i have been separated from her and we went to ALAmanda at this time . LOlz IT was weird and we decided to go to NAndo's to have our dinner. Actually i really wanted to spend her but she was like so offended and she said " AH nevermind la since u spend me last time i spend u this time ok ". I notice she hasnt really change that much since she is with someone else. Still the same annoying sweet girl i know since foundation. THe same girl that is so caring and would listen to all your problems even though she has her own problems keeping inside of her. SHe has the ability to glow around others when the people around her is dark . The girl which i knew and loved till now hasnt change but am i the guy who change because of her. There are many problems in my heart that i kept it in silence last time . I tried to ignore everyone in this world due to stress that my parents are giving me . One tried to get money from another and another is trying not to give money . I am fed up of all this shit already . I am fed up of being sad and angry . I am tired of shutting people out especially those who are really caring. I wanna be happy and i wanna give people the feeling of happiness especially my friends happiness . Eventually i broke up with her without knowing the reasons and why it happened during the first day of chinese new year . I was depressed then and didnt know wat i was doing but eventually she is happy off with another guy now. I always ask BUDDHA for happiness for me , my dad and mum but i did not see any of it getting to them. MY dad is full of shit now and he is the type who likes to give excuse in whatever possible way not to pay my fees . He makes people's life miserable but he is enjoying in his own sweet house with big TV and hometeater system. CAN YOU IMAGINE THAT TILL NOW MY DAD DOESNT EVEN KNOW WHAT IS THE NAME OF MY UNIVERSITY ??? LMFAO . It was either too funny or dissapointing to me . I dont even think he knows how to come to my uni as i asked his help many times but he keeps giving excuses that he is busy with his work . ALl i know is when i call his office he always get off work at 5pm sharp. I really see him as a failure in life . FAILURE IN WHICHEVER WAY HE IS . LOL.. Btw doesnt matter whatever shit decision it is i willl strive hard. I will be happy with my frens which is them that i can forget about my problems . If I Really could turn back time, I would MAKE her as happy as i could . I love her back then and my feelings for her has not changed until now. ..

GOod Morning ...

An early rise this morning .Lol.Sashi called me to go to FCM cafe to have breakfast there with NIthya and mani they all. Btw , this might be the last breakfast i will ever have with them before leaving MMU. I was like so blur when i woke up ,went to brush my teeth and wash my face before i walk there. After having a cup of nice Nescafe tarik , it really makes me awake after a 3 hours of sleep only. Just dont feel like eating in the wee hours of morning , I dont know whats wrong with me this semester ,No apetite, sleepless nights and having mental breakdown . My lifestyle have to change before it get worse . Next sem i need to get myself straighten out. I must strive hard for my mum and dad . I cant afford to having failures as they put their hopes in me . Cant imagine myself blogging while listening to bigbang ..LOl..Btw i saw u in FCM yesterday when i went to submit my malaysian studies journal. Love to see that u smile ..=) Wanted to tell u that I MISS U but it just cant come out from my mouth . TIme to go for lunch ...

Sleepless nights..

Every night when i tried to sleep early , it will be an impossible mission for me to do so . Lol i cant sleep and my mind just wonders round and round thinking of you. It comes automatically without me triggering it .When i lay on the bed and started to close my eyes the picture of your face would be there and it is hard for me to sleep .When that starts memories of you will be flashing through my head . I cant live through this anymore . You moved on leaving me behind to have these kinda mental breakdown. I guess you dont really care about me anymore. DOes not matter if it stays that way because the truth always hurts. Since the day i have been separated from you , the days look more alike just the same . Memories we spent will always be in my mind because you are the one who showed me happiness and sadness. You cared about me when i was in a very bad situation. Anyways when i pretend that i am happy and moved on deep down in me still remains the same. MIssing you as always . Decisions that i made can never be changed . Hope i can have my sleep back again without any memories of you ..

Escape To Midvalley...

The Big family ...

Before Piercing.

After PIercing.

Midvalley Center court..

I and sashi decided to go to midvalley on monday as we planned last week but vino,gopi,mani and nitya wanted to go for shopping in Alamanda which is in putrajaya.lol..SO i asked them to join us since they wanted to go shopping must well we go to somewhere awesome which is MIdvalley more stuffs to shop and so much better than alamanda . Midvalley was kinda awesome..Hahax teasing vino and then nithya .I was so dumb.NIthya went and make a keychain and wrote some1's name on it . I thought it was his father's name or wat ..See SEE its some1 "special".Hahax ..Once i know i keep teasing her in midvalley ..HAHAx .Was kinda fun .Then we went into one jigsaw puzzle shop and sashi showed me a puzzle called celestial and the puzzle can glow in the dark ..ITs kinda amazing . Try to guess the prize of the puzzle.It is nearly 300 bucks for one set but its really awesome. Then we went to the ladies section cause Vino wanted to get her sis a shawl or something .LOl.. there were many people lining up to pay.So its crowded.I manage to pull a few jokes by asking Vino and Nitya dont you guys want to go to the place opposite there .LOl..Guess wat they sell opposite the counter.Lol..Ladies undies and bra ..They keep staring at me in a way like they wanna eat me like tat .Lol..Then after that we went to a shop to get presents for my grandma and i also decided to get something for "someone" since christmas is coming ..We really had fun on that day .When we really decided to go back at 9 oclock we ate ice cream ..Wee baskin robbins was nice ..=)

Noise Pollution..

It was one fine evening when i was sleeping and then i woke up because of the noise pollution near my area in cyberjaya.I do not wish to say badwords here but i am really pissed of those people near the barbeque area. IF they are having party why cant they have it in a good manner or if u wanna on the music so damn freaking loud go club la. NO money dun need to do party here and disturb people.Seriously they are so uncivilized.Real cheapskate baskets. FIne if you wanna have a party why cant you adjust the volume to a comfortable level so that it will not affect others. I am so pissed so now i decided to lend my roommate's altec lansing Speaker and play BASsHUNTER's bass blasting songs. IF they can blast i also can blast music .LOl..The floor is shaking due to the bass of my roommate's subwoofer. THe speaker not bad wei hahax .IF i got money i am going to get 1 for myself.There is this old english saying an eye for an eye.I wonder what speakers are they using lol..When i turn on the altec lansing speaker i cant even hear the sound of their music.

Choices i have to make ..

Hey after a few days of leave i took from blogging finally i am back ..hahax ..Oh yeah the choices that i have to make in this last ride of my life . Recently i found out that Inti College accept my foundation in INformation Technology and i was kinda shocked. I am now in a dilemma in choosing whether i should continue in MMU or switch to INti. The odds is 30% for MMU and 70% for INTi .If i am goin to INTi i will be starting the first year of degree which i will be majoring in Finance. If i stay in MMU i will also be majoring in FINANCE. lol Which is which now,hard to make up my mind. I prolly should visit the councellor of INTI then i will decide.THe thing about me going to INti is the 2+1 they are offering in the university of NOrthwood.My mum is giving me the option she should have when i applied for INTi college first. Now i am totally in a dilemma weiiiii.Nevermind about that, I would like to express my thanks to my childhood friend Yeap KOn shyen and Jocelyn for giving me advice bout my last post about the secrets of my memories.I guess the outcome of it will be known next month. Then i am still waiting for AirAsia to send me an email for me to go for the first stage ..COMe on AK i am waiting and waiting just give me one chance to sit for the test and if i am lucky enough to go through all 4 stages then i will be very much please with myself. YEsterday my mum called she kinda emo .LOl dunno why she said calling me is expensive and recommended me to use skype .AIya one son only and call twice a week also expensive .SIEN ..fine I have to do wat she says if not she will merajuk like a budak kecil ..AHHAAx.SO i am going to download the skype today and see wat she's gonna say about the choices of me going to INTI ..LOl ..If stay eat malay food and remain the boring lifestyle of the people here and if i go i can have chinese food,my aunts are there .HMMMm..
WIll post my updates soon ..

A walk to remember..

Guys this is a really good movie . Lol i can say it is better than twilight and new moon.

A trip back to ipoh ...

Lol...I came back to Ipoh on thurs morning then one of my long lost primary school friend called me up Friday night to go to NAsmir . Then that guy FFK on fri for Futsal . Bugger but luckily he get his friends to come on fri noon which is approximately on 5.30 but still his friends are late . If he and his friends did not come then Minesh 's statement about SMI fellows cannot be trusted are true .. BUt still we played a good game although we lost against them but still its good playing with your schoolmates again . 2 of them pancit so fast lol..The only guy who ran the whole court is Minesh . There are only a few friends that i can trust and all of them is in IPoh and there is only one in my uni which is realy trustable. Its already 2 years past since i left my School ACS ipoh and all of my friends who are still in form 6 are finishing their studies and leaving my beloved hometown to continue their studies somewhere else. Wish all of them to have a smooth sailing education ahead of them .

A walk to remember ..

Hmm... Today before i hit the road back to ipoh. I was watching this movie called a walk to remember ..After watching the movie i feel damn down and kinda emo ..LOl. It is a very touching movie in many ways . IT teaches you alot of things ..Anyway skip the philosophy part from me .. Here is the synopsis of the nice movie. The main actress is Mandy Moore and the actor i dunno who is it but he did a very good job in that movie.It is about this guy who doesnt give a shit about his life and he is very mischievous and likes to do bad things in high school. A guy that doesnt appreciate anything due to his father leaving his mother and him when he was small. Then his principal caught him and punished him to do 3 things which is giving Tuition to the weaker students , act in the drama club and going to church every sunday .. Then he met this girl which was not popular and not pretty . VEry normal girl .. In coincidence the girl is oso in the drama club . THis guy who sucks in acting needs her help in how to express himself in acting .. He ask for her help but the gal told him in one condition that he should never ever fall in love with her . Eventually this guy did fall in love with her naturally not because of her looks but its because she has this miracle that can change one person truly . IN the end of the movie the gal has leukaemia and died .. I recommend you guys shud watch this movie .. REAlly really touching .. You can even watch it in youtube IT has the whole one and a half hour of touching moments there ..LOl...

EMoish...

Love is always patient and kind it is never jealous,
love is never boastful or conceited ,
it is never rude or selfish it does not take offense and is not resentful,
love takes no pleasure in other peoples sins, but delight the truth it is always ready to excuse to trust to hope and to endure in whatever comes..

lol..VEry emo after watching that movie ..
Will post it soon in here ..Time to bath and hit the road back to my home town

Secrets of memories...

Lol....Do you believe in fate ?? Yes i do ..There was once when i had this person in life but i didnt appreciate what she did for me and now i really regretted it . There is no point when things seems to be intact and then u felt u have lost everything .. When she is with another guy there u go something hits your head so hard that you dont even kinda feel it and your heart really hurts like something is stabbing it ..=) and you will have these sleepless nights and all the sweet memories of it came back flashing by your head . Maybe god wants to sent me a message that whenever you hurt or did not appreciate someone it will all come back to you. When you realise that you need her back in your life thats where it will be lost . Feelings are just lost in the wind . I cant believe its already my second post after i open my blog .. Guess she is happy with whatever she is doing now . All memories that i held in this alphabet I once wore will always be in my mind as i remember you as the person i love .... Sweet Dreams my sayang ..SAranghaeyo...

Life and its changes...

Life ...What is life ??Life is just like a candle.WHen the flame is still burning we will continue to live and when it is blown off we will perished in to ashes.Can anyone answer me specifically what's life and its purpose . People die everyday and all it is left is just the remains of it .. Its already going to be one year since my grandma died. Many people came to the funeral but i dun see those faces when she was alive .Truthfully people doesnt appreciate when she is still alive but when she is not here why bother crying ?? There is no point if u cant appreciate them when they are alive.. I asked this question when i met a monk in a buddhist centre in IPOH.. i said can u explain to me Whats life and purpose of living on it ..lol..And he gave a bunch of facts ..For your info the monk is a UM graduate in economics..Speaks good english .But still i am wondering why he became a monk ..Still there is always a reason behind everything . LIfe is given to us by god and he can take it away from us any moment . SO we must live our life to the fullest and to its extend .. Even though it is sad .. We must smile and be grateful in what we have because when there are worst things happening there is always other people far more worst then us ..I am not a contented person last time .. As time flies i realise lots of things bout life and how it goes . Enjoy studying while it last and i believe lord buddha is always guiding me in whatever i do in my life ...


PEace out >.<